in a blink of eyes, a year had gone.. hols is comin to an end really soon.. tomolo i'll b goin off back to setapak.. had been stayin at home since the 16th of dec till today.. ntg much had been done else than goin to some shoppin complex.. 2007 had been a year which i had encounter a lot.. which i dealt the most with my emotions.. i had mood swings, emotional breakdown, stressed.. had also been a year where my tears flows the most, had been a year which i lost n gain the most as well..
tonite i dunno y, suddenly i felt calm.. jus finish takin my bath.. cleanin up myself throughly had always gav me a soothin feelings.. listenin to songs n hum along is a joyful moment to me.. previous week i went back to ranhill to c mr david n visited the colleagues as well.. get all the papers done n came back home.
the previous festive season; christmas n new year had been a real quiet ones to me.. i crammed in front of my laptop drama-ing throughout the whole nite.. haha.. sounds sad after all.. but it was ok after all.. msn-ed whole nite, sms-ed as well.. at least i wasnt practically alone. =) 2 weeks passed since i last blog n although only 2 weeks it seems like so much had happen.. ntg interesting to my life.. jus some minor prob tat occurs.. new year had begin, i hope a new life awaits me in this upcomin year.. i wished i would hav a wonderful, exiciting n wonderful year ahead..
tonite as i blog, i hum along to some song of jay.. though it sounds sad, lyrics was sad n it seems like kinda suits me but dunno y i smile along with it.. does this mean i had accepted a new life a new beginnin for my life finally? tat i finally had let go? i hav no idea but it doesnt matter to me at this time.. hols had made me think n realise a lot.. before, i would sit there n start mumblin, blamin, make things seems bad, n make myself feel worse.. feeling tat i was abandon by everyone everythin in my world.. now i realise mayb it was me alone.. i remembered previously when i was chattin with jo in msn.. she told me. get up n go out n get knowin more ppl.. stop desocializing urself.. i didnt realise i was doin tat to myself.. i didnt know i did it..
next week new sem will begins, i hope i could grow into a new person, a person tat is being appreciated n known for her existence n value of my own.. new year resolution! as usual, i wished i would live a better, happier, healthier life! i wished i would gain extra self confidence in any matter! i wished i can find my way to happiness everyday! i wished *silently*... this i would keep to myself..
these days.. i developed a feeling towards nite views, nite breeze... hills, parks, seasides... ah..nvm about it.. i find no words to describe it after all.. ah.. i set a due to myself to finished up my internship's report tonite but till now i m still hesitating in beginnin it.. still being blur n lazing around at this moment.. as i return tomolo, i cant get to go online since i cut down my broadband service already since it doesnt really provide me services after all.. so i guess i would b pretty bz every weekend where i would rush home to complete all my assigned task, reports, n so on.. i had no idea y.. i m lookin forward for classes to begin.. ahhh~~ i need to get my things done.. pack up.. n facial time! lolx..
Posted at 09:36 pm by
kwding
